In Haiti something like 80% of the population is supposedly Christian denominations, (Roman Catholic, Baptist, Pentecostal..) yet more than half of the people from there practice Voodoo. I find that tremendously sad.

Ah, the fantabulous teen-years. With teens come, pressure; of every kind possible (or so it seems), growing, maturing, and the wonderful... Moodiness!

The few weeks I've been like crazy moody. I didn't even realize it until someone confronted me and said how much of a brat I've been being lately. I've also been terribly sad. Like a slight case of depression it seemed. I'm generally an extremely happy person! So it was weird.

I realized I was that way because I was away from God. Now, after I realized this I kept at it in my own-human-like ways. (Stupid me.) Then today.. Today was the worst it's been. Normally when I was upset listening to Demon Hunter, or sleeping made things all better. But I did both and everything I did seemed to make things one hundred times worse. I've been having trouble reading my Bible lately. But I forced myself to do so earlier.

Goodness, God's unfailing love strikes again!

Yet again, God has totally disregarded how I've been excluding him from activities, failed to spend time with him (when I could have done so...) and so much more.

I told him that I'm ready for him to use me. I told him that I want to be used, that I'm done with my human like ways. I want to live for him.. all the way, forever and for always.

:)

So long self well it's been fun but I have found somebody else!
So long self there's just no room for two so you are going to have to move!

*Sigh*

So I have this friend, okay? She likes a boy she met online. She's liked him for quite sometime and back in the summer her and this boy just so happened to have a relationship together! (A rather short one though..) She doesn't want the boy to know she still has a crush because of how screwy things were before... My friend is so torn! She can't tell him... but she can't seem to get over him. What should my friend do?

Sadly, if this really were one of my friends I would probably tell her to wait things out. See how it goes. Maybe eventually things will form into a relationship; with time.

Maybe I'm just being impatient. I just find it frustrating. I want to talk about it, but at the same time I don't because I feel so stupid when doing so. I always told myself, and others too, that online relationships/crushes were stupid! "They just wouldn't work!" How can I like someone I can't even be sure of knowing? I know that he is in fact who he says he is, and if anyone were to be telling me that I'd reply in, "How though?"
"I just do."
"Well, then you probably don't know for sure."
"But I do..."
And I can now see how my advice can really get on peoples nerves..

Lost and confused.... *Quotes a poem I wrote*

I'm just so... ugh tonight. =/

Adios chaps and gals

Ah here I am again..

So, if you were able to know who exactly it was you were to marry, would you want to find out?

I've been thinking about this a tremendous amount lately, thus resulting in asking a few people I know. One person said that the surprise of it makes it all the more fun! Another gave me a more complex answer, saying that we as humans, if were to know that; that it would be very likely to end up changing your future - because you knew what it was.

I'm really not sure whether or not I would want to know. I'm still very young, but at this moment in my life, thinking about it... I don't really want to deal with the hassle of dating different people. My life is very special to me; and I plan on living it for God. I don't need to waste my precious time on dates or the telephone, or thinking about him NON-STOP with a guy I'll end up not even knowing five years later. Plus, I wouldn't want to tell my future husband that I was once in-love with some guy he's never even met.

I think I would go about living my life that I would normally do, then let God do his work.

*Sigh*

I have a bit of school work to do before I can sleep, it's currently 12:03; and here I am, typing in my blog..

That said, I'm off to do that school work.

Goodnight my fellow blog readers,
Have a fantastic night!

Me

Some of my lesson's in this crazy beautiful life...

I apologize in advance, just in case this may sound harsh or irrational to you. This is just my personal opinion and I'm really getting sick of this crap.

I'm sick of people feeling bad about themselves. I'm sick of people believing they're ugly. I'm sick of people feeling as though they have to dress a certain way, act a certain way, say certain things in order to get along with others, or to fit in; or to be HAPPY! Do you people realize that there is a bigger happiness to life?

#1 A boyfriend/girlfriend will not solve all of your problems. They may make them go away for a while, but they're just going to come back. The point of "dating" is to find your future spouse. Okay? It's not some game we're supposed to play. "Oh! Lets have fun! You can be the boyfriend, I'll be the girlfriend, and and and!! We can make out and have sex! Oh my gosh! It'll just be sooooo fun! Then! When we get sick of each other, we can just find someone else and do it alll over again!!"

I hope you can see how ridiculous that is, because if not, I feel a lot of sorrow for you. For you have been so lost in today's world that you're simply stuck.

If you're lonely, a boyfriend or girlfriend may fill the void for a while, but never fully. Don't get me wrong, having someone there for you who you know cares about you, to caress you and love you is such a fantabulous feeling. I know. But even that won't fill that loneliness feeling inside.

Also, if you get a boyfriend or a girlfriend because you're feeling lonely. When you find that special person that you are actually supposed to be with, and you're still with that "lonely filler".. it hurts tremendously. Not only to the breakee but the breaker as well. Because you got yourself stuck in this situation you shouldn't have been in in the first place. If you would have been patient and waited for the perfect timing; then perhaps you wouldn't be stuck in this "should I leave them? Should I cheat? Should I just... ignore her? GAHHH!" crap. In the long run it really saves a ton of trouble.

#2 You Are Not Ugly. Believe me! Please? You're beautiful, you're handsome, you are simply perfect. Ever single one of you. I am being dead serious here, too. This isn't some joke, I am not being sarcastic.. I'm serious. "You've never seen me before... " No, I haven't, heck I don't even know who the heck ya' are! But you are absolutely gorgeous. How do I know this, exactly? Well, my Lord made you; and he's perfect. We were made in His image, making each and every one of us perfect; (in a way.) :)

Just because you don't fit into size 0 jeans, doesn't make you fat. If you are over weight, that's OK! You don't need makeup, not a little, not a lot to make you beautiful. You look great without it! So you have some type of weird issue with your eyes, or nose, or foot or whatever! You're just EXTRA special!

Don't let this stupid, ugly, horrid world break down your self-confidence. Because it's just silly to let it. This world sucks, you should know this by now. Watch five minutes of the news and it's quite obvious just how much this world sucks. So, knowing that, why are you letting it get to you? Be yourself! Roam free! So, Crystal won't like your new sweater, if you like it. WEAR IT!

#3 So, I had/have this really bad shyness issue. I hate/d being around people. It just made/ks me uncomfortable. I mean.. it was/is BAD. Not nearly as bad now, as before. But, now that I'm learning, and have been just totally stopped caring what people think of me. I've realized. That when you're shy, and always worrying about what people will think of you and such. It's really boring, and you miss out on a lot.

So I'm tellin' ya know. Live your life. To the fullest. (Please, don't do illegal stuff though, that's no fun!) Get over your fears. Don't let them set you back, because you'll never get anywhere that way. Wait for the perfect timing and fly away. Enjoy your life, 'cause you only get one.


I'm done for now, and I'll let you know that I haven't proof read this because I currently have a few things to do before bed time. So, it may have some mistakes or jump around because this came straight from my mind. So, I apologize for that as well. =P

Take care,
Much love,
Me.

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Everyone who reads this, please pray. Please pray for my friends girlfriends mom. She is disabled, and if they get enough prayers, she might be healed!! Please, pray she is healed, and pass this on!!

Thanks in advance,
ME

HELLO!

God, how we underestamate Him. How we don't give Him the credit he deserves. We forget Him. We believe our way is better that His. We doubt Him, even though He shows us He really is there. He shows us how much He loves us, but we don't except Him.

God deserves so much more than we give Him.

Without God, whats the point of being on Earth? Whats the point of it all?